Thursday, March 4, 2010

Weird and recent descriptions of me...

Since having weight loss surgery, I have heard some strange comments about my body that I've never heard before:

1.  "You are a tight healer."  --my surgeon
2.  "You really should breathe more.  You're, like, a breath-holder." --the respiratory specialist
3.  "You look just like you, only shrunk."  --a co-worker (who is also a wonderful nurse)
4.  "It's like your face is coming out at me, because you're losing your neck." --The Mom
5.  "Wow, your whole backside is like a rock."  --a CNA, as she helps me out of the shower, post-surgery.  (OK, I have heard that one before, but I just wanted to mention it again.  Baby got some firm backside!)

As complementary and/or rude/inappropriate as these comments are, I find myself laughing about them.  I collect them and try to store them in my memory bank because I find it interesting how other people are noticing and processing the changes they see in me.  And I am suddenly noticing that another person's take on my body, attitude, or breathing is just an opinion--not the God's Truth.   

This is a major realization for me.  In the past I have been hyper-self-conscious about ANY comments relating to my body--good and bad, thin or thick.  When I would gain weight, I would go home and obsess over the comment.  When I would lose weight I would duck my head, embarrassed.  Now, I find that I'm just rollin' with it.  After all, when you spend 8 days in the hospital getting poked at by strangers, including a rough sponge-bath from a large, redheaded CNA in a room with glass doors, you sort of give up on your self-consciousness.  You have to. 

And so far it seems to be a good thing.  It's a breath of fresh air to know that my self-worth is less tied up in what others say than it used to be.  So if you see me on the street, feel free to note my 3-D face, if I'm breathing freely, or even check out the badonk-a-donk.  You won't be the first.  And at the rate I'm changing these days, I'm sure that you won't be the last.


  1. LOL at number 4! Aren't moms just...well... aren't they.... something...
    I noticed your description and wondered, HAVE any of your employees found this???
    I love your positive attitude, very refreshing :)

  2. Thanks, Tina!

    As far as I know, none of my employees have found me. Or if they have, they graciously don't let me know about it. I'm in HR so I always have to think about these things. The worst was seeing a group when I was at a bar (drinking) one time. Whoops!

    Thank you for your kindness! :-)