Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Delayed Gratification

Ever psych yourself up for something and then it doesn't happen.  Like when you really have to sneeze.  You scrunch up your face, close your eyes, take a deep breath in, and....nothing.

Yup, my gastric bypass surgery was postposed.  Only a week, but still.  I'd already started fasting.  And I am a bitch when I don't eat (I have several co-workers, vendors, and worker's comp lawyers that can now attest to this).

Yet I don't feel as though I have a "reprieve" or "stay of execution."  I feel let down.  And yeah, I can eat carbs for another 7 days, but what is the point, really?  It feels like a punishment.  I never thought I'd say that.  I guess this means I'm ready...

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