The new year is bringing me a gift--that of a reality check. If you've read any of my blog, you'll know that reality and I have a somewhat spotty relationship. I much prefer the imaginary Babe-land that I retreat to from time to time, a land where carbs have no consequences; a land where I can eat all I want, never exercise, and not gain any weight; a land where I have men lined up around the block to date me, fabulously high-paying jobs, a party every night, etc. etc. So yeah, it ain't real.
Here's the reality. I have a cold, so I wasn't able to go to the one party I was invited to for New Years. And I love parties. And New Years. Huge Bummer. And when I'm sick the idea of protein makes me queasy, nor is exercise all that feasible. Also a Bummer. Then this morning I woke up with a carb-bloat so bad that my eyes were nearly swollen to slits, and I'm up to about 209 lbs. Biggest Bummer of them All. With all of that, my Babe-ness crawled out of Babe-land and announced, "Self, it is time for reality."
And that's the point of the blog anyway...to make my experiences real and concrete enough to exist in the spoken word on an actual page, with actual people seeing it. Without that check-in, I could retreat back into Babe-land, where I once weighed 350+ lbs and was too miserable to go out into the world. Reality is harsh, but it is real and can be relied upon to always be truthful. Retreat too far into imagination and you never really know what's what.
Reality is bitch-slapping me in the face and telling me to make a damn plan already. So, here is the plan:
1. Checking in online 2-3xs per week (so far, check!)
2. Food diary. I truly TRULY hate this step, but I know that it is the best way to stay real about what I'm eating and how it's affecting my mood and my weight. I'm taking inspiration from blogger TinaM, who records her food almost religiously.
3-4. Make plans and stay busy (I know that it's 2 things--just consider this a combo-plate). My family did a wonderful job of listening to me and got me things to use, instead of just stuff. I got a gift of weekly Pilates from my parents, my brother and sister-in-law got me classes at a local cooking school (for a knife skills class--be very afraid!), and I have 3 Groupons that I bought--yoga classes, knitting classes, and Zumba classes. I just have to figure out how to schedule it all, and I know it sounds overwhelming, but I need to have plans and I need to stay busy. Otherwise I end up as a lump on the sofa, eating as many carb-tastic things as I can.
5. Find a better way to plan and eat meals. There are way too many good sites with recipes for post-surgery folks (and those that otherwise need healthy meals), and I need to utilize them. Maybe I'll blog for a week of Cooking Adventures. Especially once I've gotten in my knife skills class!
I can think of a lot more things that I should be doing, but frankly I can only concentrate on so many things at one time (the gift of ADD--just keeps on giving and....wait, what was I talking about?).
What is your New Year's Plan? (I just can't bring myself to say resolution, since the resolution ship sailed on the day I decided to have surgery). Tell me in the comments what you're looking forward to or planning for 2011....