So I talked before about how a lot of post-surgical peeps are thin, with a bit of bulk in the abdomen/hip area from extra skin (I spoke about this previously here). Since it seems to be very typical of post-ops to be disproportionate this way, I'm trying to be kind to myself and not let the weeble-wobble image in the mirror throw me.
But I finally had to replace my jeans because it isn't attractive when you have to keep hitching them up as you walk. You can see in my 6-month pic that they are pretty baggy, so I went to Lane Bryant. They have a new sizing system based on your build--curvy, average, or straight. I tried on an average pair first and I was a size 22. Shocking to think that 6 months ago I didn't even know my size because I wouldn't have been caught dead in a pair of jeans. But the 'average cut', while just barely fitting around my waist, was way too big in the hips, butt, and thighs. So I got the slender straight cut...and found out I had to get a size 24. While they fit smaller, the size was larger. And the tops I bought were all 22's. Grrrr....
I know that sizes and numbers shouldn't matter, but at this phase they really do. The scale isn't moving, my clothing size is still starting with a two--shouldn't I be thin by now? And why is it that my stomach is still so increadibly out of proportion?
I don't know the answers. I don't know what will cause those numbers to go down further, other than to keep doing what I'm supposed to. And I know in my head that my proportions will be off and strange until the time I lose enough weight and get plastic surgery to correct that.
But it still is very frustrating. Anyone who says that surgery is the easy way out should be slapped.